Based on my experience, when you're working and you're  in a relationship with a guy who's not working, it's kinda hard because he needs to adjust  with your schedule and it's not easy, especially when you're working out of town, and you just have 1 or 2 days to spend your time with him. Maybe you can work it out at first, but in the end, things get complicated, he gets clingy (in a bad way), and very demanding. and things that's not supposed to be problems become problems, and suddenly he's out of reach because maybe he's tired of not be able to talk or meet you whenever he wants to and it makes him frustrated. And then suddenly, you lost him. I know it sounds really cliche but..you don't know him anymore. He's changed. He's different. He's distant. And at the time when you need him the most, he's not there. And then you begin to questioning everything, like "what's the point of be in a relationship if your boyfriend isn't there for you and God only knows what he's doing"  "is he worth it?" "why do I feel like suffocating instead of happy when I'm in a relationship with him?" "is it normal?" "does he love me enough?" "DO I LOVE HIM ENOUGH?" "Relationship supposed to make you feel better and be better, right? But why do I feel like this relationship bothers me so much to the point where I don't feel like the situation that I'm in?" "why do I feel like irritated when he calls or texts?" "Why am I not interested in telling him how my day was?". And then you do something that'll change everything. You broke up with him.  You made the decision. And it changed your whole perspective about Love, Relationship, and Guy. And after a deep deep thought and a deep breath, you finally realized that you're no longer your-old-self. but that doesn't mean a bad thing. it's everything you could ask for.



"She lost him, but she found herself, and somehow that was everything"