It's LITERALLY. Every place I go reminds me of him. Every moment, I hope that somehow he's there, watching me. Everytime I feel pretty, I hope that he's there, seeing me. Everyday, I hope that he regrets everything and crawling back to me. Every second of the day, I hope that all of these feelings will fade away. Immediately. Even tho' I'm the one that lets him go. Beg him to go. I know that it's just another phase of my life. I know that this is the circumstances that I have to go through until I finally find the one that I want to spend the rest of my life with. When I think about my past, there was no guy that made me feel like I wanted to spend the rest of my life with him. Including this guy that I can't seem to get over. So it's very confusing. I didn't love him. I don't love him now either. I don't want to spend the rest of my life with him. God I can't even imagine how my life will turn up if I end up marrying him, one thing I know that it'll be so damn hard because I know that he's no good for me. He's not the kind of guy who will fight hard for me because his god-damn-pride is higher than the Empire State! But why is it so hard to stop remember all the things that we've done together?!!!! And the worst thing is, everytime I remember him, it's not his face or anything physical that plays on my mind. It's the feeling he gave me when I was with him.